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The St. Augustine Blues

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I was looking forward to visiting St. Augustine.  It is the oldest city in America (1500’s)

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It has all the things I love:

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Old Buildings

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Interesting architecture

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Boats

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Good weather

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And a little bit kooky history with Ponce de Leon and his search for the fountain of youth

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In spite of  all the inspiring surroundings, I was overcome with a sadness and depression.
I felt like the whole ‘living my dream’ thing was a huge mistake.

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I shared some of my feelings on facebook, and got some amazing feedback about staying inspired and  the creative process.

I was reminded that my experience was not unique…everybody goes through some creative ‘block’ from time to time.

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I realized that I was trying too hard to produce something creative and amazing every day.

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I was like a fish swimming against the tide, I was putting out a lot of effort, and getting nowhere.

I should just go with the flow, and let the ideas come to me.

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So I took a long (3 hour) walk on the beach, with no camera, no sketchbook, and no goal of making anything.  I was just going to enjoy being a part of the world.

I had a breakthrough while watching fishermen at work.  I had never seen that style of fishing, and I don’t know exactly why, but the ‘block’ vanished,  I was inspired again, I felt good about my plan, and I was happy to be out in the world!

So today’s lesson was:  don’t try so hard + go with the flow.

ps.  even though i didn’t take any art supplies on my walk,  i did have my phone, and was able to get a few photos of the fishermen

 

2 thoughts on “The St. Augustine Blues

  1. Thanks for sharing about your creative block, Ken.
    I’ve got three things to mention.
    1. Your work is delightful and enjoyed by so very many people.
    Don’t ever discount that.
    2. Self motivating is not easy.
    A 9 to 5 job isn’t necessarily easy but it is more finite. When we had our business at home I always felt guilty for relaxing for a few minutes. Now that I get to paint more ( no more finishing violins , thank you ) I keep feeling that I haven’t accomplished enough at this stage of my life. Blah ,blah, blah. I’m my own worst enemy.

    3. It is February, the most depressing month of the year. I kid you not .Most people are at their fattest right now. At least I am.

    I love the pictures from your trip – beautiful.

    1. sharing Margie! I remember how working 9-5 was awful, but at least there was a start and stop to it. Now, I feel like I am always on. I LOVE my work, so it hardly ever a problem. Simetimes I do forget to clock out when I really need to. February is not as bad with a little sunshine. Maybe you guys should pack the paint and join me for some camping in the Ocala national forest?! Thursday-Sunday

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